Handsome Girl

Please enjoy this poem/song called “Handsome Girl.” Can you relate?

Handsome Girl

A pink bow on a blue bonnet,

Age of eight, writing a sonnet

  On coming of age before its time –

Sense of Homer, turn of a rhyme.

Family never thought to drop a dime,

  Innocence taken before its time.

Handsome girl – cruel world,

  Quiet voice, tragic choice.

Don't know who will take me,

  Heaven or hell –

Want you to pass the life test I failed.

A pink leotard with a blue cape

Superhero to some, justified to none.

Criticized by most – too tragic to boast.

Friends never thought to spend some time

After all, the flame is mine.

Handsome girl – funny world.

Mumble out loud – left out of the crowd.

Don't know who could name me, the devil or God.

Don't want to be honest, sincere or a fraud.

I've turned on my blinders and dotted my eyes –

Defended cruelty and backed up their lies.

Now I have a chance at living a life

Without all the pain, violence and strife.

Though I don't deserve it – nobody's perfect.

Handsome girl – rare pearl,

Coarse on the surface – I now have a purpose.

Give me a chance – ask me to dance.

A handsome girl – new to the world.

Settling In

Hi there, I’m Mia. I was born a male and due to some poor choices and horrible decisions I’m in Department of Human Services custody. (See Windy City Times “Meeting Kobi” and related articles written by myself.)

I am 34 years old and am currently pursuing a SRS (sexual reassignment) while in custody here in Illinois. I am truly thankful for the Department which has kindly placed my needs before any political you know what! This will all start with a mental examination that will be done soon. It will determine whether I will truly benefit from treatment including hormone replacement therapy (HRT). While I am eager to get started, I have to say I am a little nervous. I mean, when you want something so badly it becomes its own living, breathing creature, sometimes that creature becomes something bigger than oneself. I suppose I really can’t explain. Anyway I will post further developments.

Meanwhile, has anybody else been nervous about this kind of life change? Speak up. I could really use the support or advice or plain comments. I love you all. See you soon!